Wow girl, you really know how to pick them! Let's start with the climb over the wall; do you always work that hard to maintain a relationship? You must be exhausted! Imagining your emotional life "blood" pouring out of you was an intense experience for me. I can't begin to imagine what it was like for you. I'm concerned.
So let's see what we have so far. A woman working really hard, emotionally bleeding for a man while he sits behind a wall, sipping wine, and saluting her efforts. I couldn't help thinking about S and M relationships. Have you considered that? If that's so, is it working for you? The dream says NO.
That's not my biggest concern however. My biggest concern is your inability to feel throughout most of the dream. It indicates serious trauma and disassociation (a psychological disconnect between the emotional and physical selves). It's going to take time and effort to reconnect with yourself. Be patient.
The dream also indicates you are waking up to the situation and that is a good thing. I highly recommend you seek professional help. It's tough getting back into your skin alone.
Good luck and please let me know how you are doing.