Oracle of Ybor: If you deny your hunger, then it will fester inside of you and rot

You risk growing bitter and furious and resentful of those you love until there is only hate left.

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click to enlarge The Queen of Pentacles is a giver, generous and kind, but also someone with a plan. - Photo via Simon Mouton/Adobe
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The Queen of Pentacles is a giver, generous and kind, but also someone with a plan.
Dear Oracle, everything is fine, but I'm feeling stuck. There is something I'm looking for, but I don't know what it is. I feel a lack of direction and am looking for guidance.—Miss Direction

Cards: Queen of Pentacles (reversed), Ace of Swords (reversed), The Moon (reversed), The World.

Dear Direction, what you need is a hunger.

There's a reason that word gets tossed around in hustle culture. People say, "You have to be hungry for it," when they mean, "You have to want something enough." But hunger isn't a want. It is a need.

To have a hunger is to have a calling, something that drives you.

The plus side of it is that it commits you to your path. Every action towards your goal takes on a devotional air. You are doing what you have to do. The downside is that hunger can leave you feeling like you never have enough, even if other parts of your life are well-fed.

The fundamental want in you right now is to be a leader in your own life. The Queen of Pentacles is a giver, generous and kind, but also someone with a plan. You may have been under the wing of a generous woman for a long time (like a mother), and while grateful, you want to break out.

But to do that, you need to know who you are as a person. The Ace of Swords is a card of human complexity, of our thoughts, our personal philosophies, our ideals. You need to (and are ready to) start discovering the person you are meant to be and what that person hungers for.

Send your questions for the Oracle to [email protected] or DM @theyboracle on Instagram
To do this, you will need to journey inside of yourself. The Moon is a card of all that is hidden. It is your subconscious, yes, but it is also where you keep those thoughts you don't want to see in the light of day. The land of the Moon is where our true desires are, lurking in the dark.

There are different ways to explore the subconscious. You can try with a psych-professional (therapist, Jungian analyst), with a spiritual leader (a shaman, a meditation teacher), or with some other unconventional ways (hypnosis, lucid dreaming.) Or you can meditate and keep a journal. But deep down, there is a need stirring. It's why you feel restless even now when everything is "fine." You'll find it if you look.

It's fitting that the last card is The World. The World is both the end of the journey and the beginning. It's the card of the Bardo, that transitional place when one life ends and the other begins. You are going to find a life for yourself, I believe that. It may look vastly different than your life now, it may be subtly different, but that new life is around the corner.

However, your new life will have to be a conscious one. You'll have to drag out what you find in the dark and bring it into the light. That might sound scary, to live with what you discover, but the alternative is worse.

If you deny your hunger, that fundamental part of yourself, then it will fester inside of you and rot, and it will fill you with contempt as thick as motor oil, and you will grow bitter and furious and resentful of those you love (often your spouse and kids) until there is only hate left.

It's a common fate but one I wouldn't wish on anyone.

So whatever you discover, know that it cannot hurt more than a soul left to starve.

Dear Oracle, I'm starting out in a new industry career-wise. I have a little experience but am looking to take the plunge full-time. What should I know at this time?—New Horizons

Cards: The High Priestess (reversed), Six of Cups, Three of Pentacles

Dear New, congratulations on starting in a new industry! Whatever your industry is, it seems to be an exciting one. The Six of Cups is a dreamy card, full of child-like optimism and nostalgia, meaning you'll probably be working with people who have wanted to be in this industry since they were kids.

While that might sound intimidating, it actually leads to passionate co-workers keen to help each other achieve the goal. The Three of Pentacles is a harmonious card for partnerships, especially creative ones. It's far more about collaboration than competition, which is great for a newbie because it means people will help you grow. You'll go far if you show dedication to doing your part and play nice with others.

With The High Priestess reversed, I bet you're a natural at your new work. You have an intuition about it, which makes you a quick study and something that (hopefully) impresses your new bosses.

But being reversed, there are also things you've yet to learn. As the Occult Norma Rae of this paper, I’ve got to insist that you do what you can to protect yourself from exploitation. Bright young things looking to break into industries are perfect targets for nefarious bosses because they're both talented and don't know any better. Don't sign contracts until you've read them thoroughly and looked up everything you don't understand (or show a lawyer if you got one), talk to union reps, be active in setting boundaries. If something feels off, don't ignore it, and certainly don't let some asshole in a plastic office chair gaslight you.

If your industry is as friendly as the cards suggest, talk to everyone. Make connections and ask, "is this normal?" Hopefully, they can help you.

But beyond protecting your neck, this will be a wonderful new direction for you. The High Priestess is open to the world and to receive some surprising gifts. Who knows? You might find that this new industry was your calling all along.

Best of luck, my dear!

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