Love and sex have always been my nemeses. I am a self proclaimed control freak and perfectionist who must do everything myself. This attitude doesn't exactly work when it comes to sex and relationships. Ironically, all I have ever really wanted was to have that kind of intimacy with another person. Perhaps I need a man to help me lose control. For all my longing I have never woken up in a man's arms, had the feeling of giving and receiving pleasure simultaneously, or had a boyfriend have his way with me because he just couldn't wait any longer.